February certainly has been a pretty good month compare to the previous 2-3. I am still running 20-30 Buy ins under EV, but manage to win some nice amount of profit this month.



This graph started on the 9th of Feb, because I formatted my comp and lost all previous data. I think I won about $200 on the first week so,

Profit $1511 + rake back roughly 600 = $ 2011

Prior to formatting my computer, I was $1000 under EV, - 20 buy ins

Online Poker

Me and a couple of friends joined a 54 ppl live tourney last night. the blinds went up so fast it kills me on the first round lol. The more I play sit n go the more I realise how sexy cash game is.

I am just so in love with online poker right now. Here's why!!

- The freedom to play & stop anytime I want. Let's say I am invited to a home game, and I didn't have much sleep the night before, 2 hours into the game I feel sleepy, I can't just walk away and go to sleep. Well I could, but it won't be ethical. I will be running away with my winnings, the home game won't have enough players as planned, not worth the travelling time, etc etc etc etc. you know what I mean! Online I could play for 15minutes don't feel like playin shut it and go to sleep!

- Multitabling & Playing more hands per hour. After the little live tourney yesterday, I sat on the cash sides games. On my right was one of the biggest hyper aggressive donks in the world.

Then, on my left was one the biggest calling station I've eve played with. He's a bigger calling company than vodafone, nokia, AT&T COMBINED!!!!

Second to my left & second to my right, were 2 guys guy that don't want to get intimidated and always fight off the hyper aggro and the station by being even more aggro and doing some levelling war.

So, there are 6-8 players sitting in and out the table, and I had 3 biggest donks, plus 1 station.

Dream Table?? YES!!! but I couldn't really do much other than wait for hands. I was card dead for hours, My best hands was AQ and TT over the entire 4 hrs session. I managed to win only $170 which is less than 2 buy ins. I was pretty dissapointed with the fact that I was card dead and that I didn't win more. I could've easily win more if I get dealt 1 extra AA over that 4 hours session.

Imagine it was online poker! I get dealt more hands per hour, I believe I'd get AA KK QQ at least for a 4 hrs session on 1 table.

This is suck, I just wrote the other half of this blog, I just lost em damn it.

- Online poker enable me to table select. After 4 hours playing with donks, the table finally broke and I joined another table with all my friends playing in it. Out of 9 players only 2 of them are loose and I didn't have position vs the loosest player. Not very exciting table. Online, I could just switch table without thinking twice, but at this particular time only this 1 table is playing, hence I am kinda have to sit in here rather than doing nothing.

- Hold'em Manager measures our performance - I am quoting a succesful American businessman "What gets measured improves" Hold'em manager measures every single of our movement and our opponents' which really points out our leaks and theirs. What a useful tool only available online and not live.

- Online training sites and forum. Cardrunners videos and forum has really improved my game over the past couple of months, it is one of the greatest thing that happen to my poker education so far. We can watch first hand videos from the top pros, discuss hands on the forum with winning regs and pros from all over the world. What a great access we have right here. It's just amazing really.

Live cash game on the other hand, the best education i could get probably from books, I could discuss hands with my friends that I refularly play poker with, however, they are not regulars nor winning players.

- PokerTABLEratings publish & recognise our performance. I personally believe that PokerTableRatings is one of the best thing that happened to online cash game. Not because we could access to our opponents data and see if they are fishes, but rather we get recognise from poker community when we do well.

Tourney players always get more recognition than Cash game players, because tourneys able to measure players performance based on plyrs' number of cash finishes, final tables and bracelets. Live Cash game do not measures one's winnings over the course of an entire year because its too much work and won't make sense.

PokerTableRatings however came up with this recognition system that recognise the best player of the year from every stakes, the millionaire club, who's on fire and so on. We get more recognition for our hard work!

It's like we are playing on a sports league and everyone trying to get recognise as the best! Well, at least I feel that way!

I love it!! Live cash game still can't do this.

- Online microstakes is a Good training ground to prepare for Live cash game. Online poker is much more difficult to win than Live game. This fact alone will outweigh all the benefits I stated above. After all, we're here to make the most money.

We however could use online microstakes as a training ground, because when we can beat $10NL online, we can beat $100 nl live. Cheap learning!!!

I am taking 2 days break from poker, maybe 3 days, depending how I feel. I am pretty tired after that tourney, few parties before that and i think 4 weeks straight of online poker. I am pretty exhausted right now and deserve to take a few days break.

I'll do some gym classes and a little work out, but mostly just vegetating on the bed watching "Supernatural" from season 1 lol. I bought the whole 5 seasons and watching it from the beggining.

It was pretty ordinary on season 1 but it gets better! I am up to mid of season 3!

At the end of this month I am going to Melbourne for a 1 month holiday, I am thinking of taking a break from online poker and grind live at the CROWN Casino. Grind $100 or $200 NL.

Maybe I could still play online early on the day and grind at the casino at night. I am still thinkin what to do.

I have roughly 3 weeks to decide, while at the same time enjoying online poker!!


Cheerss

I decided to summarise my last 2 weeks of December progress together, because I haven't been winning and therefore don't feel like writing blog. LOL

Last week I promised that I was going to kick some serious ass. Well, I lied. Turned out I got my ass kicked pretty hard! These past few weeks, I've been playing 6-8 ante tables10c/25c/50c with $100 buy ins, I had nice winning sessions earlier, but in the past 3-4 weeks, I've hardly had winning sessions. Over aggression, suck outs, coolers, tilt, bad decisions forced me to step back a bit and stop playing at those ante tables. I believe my bankroll is not sufficient enough to continue.

I have decided to grind at 25c/50c starting this week. I started questioning myself if I really unable to beat those anted games, If the opponents are too tough? Am I not good enough? Maybe I couldn't handle the constant aggression at the anted tables? or Are these just variances? I'd like to think that it's the variance taking over. But who cares, the right decision is to step back a bit and play at tables that I am more comfortable with. I will grind back until I have sufficient bankroll and I will decide if I am going to take those ante table a go again, or just focusing on going up to $100 NL. This is my first major set back since I started playing at fulltilt.

A few important things I learnt from my current downswing dillema. First, I need to control my daily expenses outside of poker. It's been out of control for months, I NEED to discipline myself to cut out unecessary spendings. One of the major reasons my bankroll can't handle my current swing is that I believe I cashed out too much during the last couple of months. I really need to fix that, or I'll DIE.

Second, I bought a new book last night, well it's an e-book - hard copy also available. By Dusty Schmidt - Leatherass called "Treat your poker like a business" it's a great book for me, my previous education and work experience relate so much onto his business analogies. I read half of the book as soon as I got it, one sentence struck me the most when he mentioned that if You could spend time on poker for 40 hours a week, you will be a beast in the poker industry. This sentence keep running in my mind since the first time I read it. I normally measure my playing capacity by the number of hands I played, this time I'll need to incorporate the hours played, because I want to be the beast in the poker industry!! It sounds stupid really that I've never measured my hours spend on poker, well wellcome to my world, I am an idiot. LOL.

I was doing so well early on the week, then I kept my eyes off the ball. I lost focus towards the end. I was playing on tilt on Saturday and problems with my girlfriend distracted me. Big big mistakes, I definetely should have won more. I felt pretty exhausted towards the end of the week.

Having said that, after the tilt I, decided to take it easy. I took a day or two break. Yesterday I had a complete poker day off. Im gaining my energy back slowly, today Im starting to feel energized again, not fully but its much better. I've fix up things with my girlfriend, so everything's back to normal. I am preety much even for the 2nd week of Dec so far. I am ready to kick some serious ass during the next couple of days! You will see! LOL

I have always been dreaming to become financially independence at the age of 25. Financially independence means different thing to different people, but for me its all about having money coming in without having to worry about doing any work, in other words passive income. $8000-$10.000 a month of passive income would mean a financial independence for me. The money could come from stock investment, real estate rental, business residual, and so on. But then, staying home playing game and earning that much, would come pretty close.

Freedom at 25 years old may seems a bit ambitious for most people, but when you first introduced to financial independence at the age of nineteen, 25 seems a long way away. And guess what, I will be 25 in less than six months time (In April), I am nowhere near $8000 a month passive income. Not even $1 passive income LOL.

I was given a formula from somebody I admire once; Success = Work x Dreams x Vehicle

I always have dreams, I dream while Im awake and I also dream while im sleeping . I was also introduced to one of the best vehicle towards financial independence since I was 19 years old, it was network marketing (I still believe it's one of the best financial independece tool out there for most people).

I have my dream and my vehicle all settled since 6 years ago, but I just can't seems to be able to do the work, I was just not motivated enough. Life just got in the way, either it's money, laziness, holidays, relationship, health or all of the above.

Right now, poker is my new vehicle. Poker may not able to provide me with passive income, but then staying home playing online at my own will and earning that much would preety much acomplish my financial goal.

These past few months, I have been very happy with the progress on my poker game, everything just goes perfectly until life do what they do best, messing up with your path to success. Out of nowhere it takes the only thing I have left, the only person that has been supporting me all along, suddenly just snap and give me a total emotional shits to deal with. In this case it's my girlfriend, I won't go into detail, but all I know, life suddenly just trying fuck up my perfect relationship with Teruyo. Maybe it's not life, but it's just how it works, when everything going so well for you, you are just going to be tested, whoever strong and smart enough to respond and make the right decisions will eventually get there.

Looking forwards, according to my goal I have 1 year and 5 months before I achieve $8000 a month from poker. That's before my 26th Birthday. When I was doing network marketing, I did everything to learn; reading motivational books, learning from seminars, even listening to positive encouraging songs just to keep my heads up. What I have always lack is passion to do the work.

Somehow, in poker I found that passion that I've been lacking. I have never work this hard on anything since my attempt to lose weight 3-4 years ago. Poker is my vehicle! I am pretty obsessive person. When Im into things, im always "ALL IN"

While it's good listening to positive songs, read some books and watch some helpful videos, at this age all those are obsolete unless I IMBALANCE all that with hardwork. Those songs, books and seminars are sure hepful when I was 19, but only doing those at 24 would just make my dreams to become wishes. I still do them but they are just so behind me. I know, I know and I know that all I need to do now, is just the WORK.

Those are:
1) Keep playing, playing and playing poker
2) Keep improving my skills using poker videos, audios and poker books
3) Excercise well
4) Don't let any distractions mess up with my head, it will always keep coming, something that I never expect will always hit me, but I need to FOCUS. Follow Once Course Until Succesful - in other words "ALL IN"

My priorities are always the same:
1) Relationship with the person that I care about
1) Optimal health
1) Financial Independence
1) Sense of accomplishment/ achievement

Notice that all are number 1? yes all of those are my priorities, when I acomplish all those, I am succesful!!


Time for action guys!!! Need all the support out there!!! So long!!!

November overall has not been a preety good month moneywise. Had a few weeks of downswing, managed to earned $73+ profit. LOL

However, other than monetary stuff which is the most important , there are a lot of positives came out of November. I worked very hard as planned. Managed to play 2 sessions a day in average, other than putting more hours on poker, I also managed to exercise way more than the previous months. Overall, Im very happy with my work ethic on November! Im preety burned out by the last day of November, that's why Im writing the blog now instead to yesterday, too exhausted.

Summary for 4th week of November:

The days gone by so fast, before you know it, its the 4th week of November. Pokerwise, I had a roller coaster ride during the week, but I managed to do well on weekends. I'd like to think my bad run of cards is finally over, because I earned preety significant amount compare to last week.

Here's the summary:

Second week of November, there is only 1 best expression to describe my poker game; FULLTILT POKER

I was swinging so bad until I played bad. I usually have a week or 2 of bad weeks every month. These losses always remind me why people stop playing poker or decided to play casually instead of fulltime and that's where the money from; steamy people that can't handle bad swings. So when these swigns happens, Im always telling my self that this is part of my life, and just get over it. LOL. The beats that I experienced was just beyond science. I don't even wanna get into that, its not even funny. HA hA HA

Here's details of what happened during the dark week: