Ok I met my ex yesterday and knew she had soemthing to tell me. Meeting me in public is not something she does without a reason.

Well low and behold she tells me she is taking my kid and leaving the state. Such a bummer as I really enjoy being a dad. This had to happen right after I told you all what a great stepmom my wife is.

I want another kid. Ya it is pretty selfish but what can I say. Did not want another one but now I do. I just get too much entertainment and fun with my child and I dont want that to end. My wife is not sold on the idea as she says things like "I will have your child" but she is hinting that if it was not for me she would not want children.

I am not too worried about it cause I have a feeling that once the kid comes she will change her tune and love being a mom. I was not exactly thrilled when I found out I knocked some chick up but now I am really gonna miss my daughter.

Got married yesterday. She is a great woman with a massive sense of humor. Something tells me she is gonna need it being married to me. Not sure if she knows what she is in for and I know for a fact her friends have no clue who or what I am and they kinda think of me as a showpiece and male eye candy. That is fine and I am not looking to change that in the least.

Probably will end up being one of the greatest moves or one of the worst moves of my life... time will tell.

I will say this though.... I will try to do whatever it takes to make things work. Mostly I would be really embarassed to get a divorce after waiting so long to get married.

Ya there is probably gonna be some power struggles with us now that our relationship has changed. This girl is very strong minded, however she pales in comparison to the girl I have a child with who really is a tough bitch and makes this girl look like a cream puff when it comes to things like power struggles.

One of the main reasons I married this girl is that she accepts my daughter and she loves children. She is also very well educated and is smarter than me as proven by us both taking the same on-line iq test and her scoring higher.

My brother heard that I have a girlfriend and invited us to his lake house for the weekend. I was not gonna ask her but how would it look to my family if I refused to let them meet her after they ask?

Anyhow I am expecting to do a lot of work over the weekend. My brother is famous for inviting people to his lake house and making them do an assload of work around his house, he is currently building a garage. I am not complaing though, it will give me and my gf some time apart.

Anyhow a whole weekend together plus a 4 hours car trip each way might decide some things in the relationship LOL. It is wierd how I spend a lot of time in her world and she has spent none in mine. Well until this weekend.

I gave her a full list of warnings about my family so she wont be shocked. My aunt and uncle spend hours fighting every day. My brother is very hard on his kids, unlike me. It has been years since I even yelled at my kid. Ya I will say things like get your ass in the car but she knows that is how I am and I am not mad or anything.

Anyhow here is to hoping for a fun filled weekend! It is amazing I havebe

She told me she loved me this weekend. Actually she said "I think I love you". I tried to play it off and said something like "that is very sweet", however she was not buying any of that and said something like "if you dont feel the same let me know now".

She got drunk and showed her tits this weekend... in a friend of ours front yard. A couple of guys snapped some shots and one of them emailed me one of them. In fact her best friends husband now has a picture of her tits on this phone that he was nice enough to show to me.

I might talk about this more later as I have mixed feeling about it. And no I am not gonna post the pic so dont ask LOL. She does have a nice large rack and when she asked me about if I was pissed I told her something like "if I had a 14 inch dick I would show it off too".

Ok so far we have had 3 incidents. That is about 2 too many for how long we have been dating. Two of them have involved other men. If you guys have any thoughts on them feel free. Here we go, in chronological order.

1) She invited me to Buffalo Wild Wings with 2 other couples, I had only met one person out of the 4 before. We had not even ordered yet and one of the males called her a drunk and whore and brought up her recent arrest for DWI. She got pissed and we left, never got to have any wings. Usually I would tell a guy that did this to GTFO but this was supposed to be her friend, and I know and am friendly with his sister and mother (never met him before though).

2) At a party and this guy shows up and starts telling her he wants to fuck her and what not. This fine person is married BTW, wife at home obviously. She reaches out and slaps him and tells him I am her boyfriend.

3) I call her Monday and she says something like "well I guess I will only see you on Friday this week". Ya, I have a birthday party to go to at my Sisters on Sat but that is in the afternoon and would not kill Sat night. She then made some stupid comment about how we are not teenagers who need to see each other every day.

I blasted her ass saying that we see each other at most 3X (usually 2X) a week and that is not close to every day. I told her if that is too much for her then we need to date other people, cause I want someone who wants to spend their time with me. She insisted everything is great and what not, and she agreed to see me Sat. She emailed me the next day saying to call her and invited me out for trivia and wings that night, which I declined.

I have no clue what prompted her to shut me out on Sat. but I have a sneaky feeling it was that she was worried I was going to invite her to my sisters party where my family would be. Was not going to do that, I think it is way too fast, but now I realize she might have issues with this and will wait a very long time before I even think about it.

I have a girlfriend. We have agreed to be exclusive. No I did not bring this up, she did. Have no clue how long it will last but I will try and have fun with it. Here is what I know about her.

1) We are the same age.

2) She was married once and is now divorced.

3) She has a graduate degree and is highly intelligent and has a good sense of humor.

4) She takes medication for nerves and depression.

5) She is very wild and free, and likes to drink. Has probably banged a ton of guys. She shaves her downstairs area and never wears underware.

6) She owns her own house

7) She told me "she is crazy about me", and thinks we have natural chemistry.

Wonder how I am gonna screw this up? How long can I go without causing a problem in the relationship?

I have let my gaurd down around her a ton. Much more than any other woman save one or two. For example... I let her paint my toenails bright pink. We were laughing and joking and having a good time with it, obviously this is not something I would let most women do, even women I am banging. I trusted her that she would not lose respect for me because of it. She knows I have a lot of quirks and am strange but she seems to not mind that, it really freaks most women out.

Anyhow there is one HUGE problem with what is going on. She has slowly grown on me more and more but I dont feel like I am in love. I did feel like I was in love with that girl who dumped me and I bitched about it for three days on this blog. I felt hot for her all the way down to the bones, and cant say I feel the same way about this girl.

Yes we have fun together, yes I trust her more than most women I have screwed, yes we communicate good and I am not hiding a bunch of shit from her. Everything is pretty good, but I am worried about not feeling in love. The question is how big of a red flag is this? I dont know.

Hmm this girl I have been banging told me she wants us to be exclusive. Kinda shocking to me really. She told me she does not fuck multiple guys at once. It is not that I want her going around fucking other men but I dont go exclusive just cause we are banging. Ya there is not exactly a line around the block to bang me it is more the whole idea of it. Being exclusive means they are your girlfriend and I want to know more about her before she is my girlfriend. I have some questions that only time will reveal the truth on.

These questions mostly involve

1) Is she a whore?

2) Does she have substance abuse problems?

There are questions in my mind about both of these subjects.

No gory details but ya I got some action last night. It was kinda funny when we got done I asked her if she wanted me to leave.... she said no, and I ended up spending the night. Then she said "have people asked you to leave before"? I said, yep, many times, and I have told quite a few people to GTFO when we were done as well. She seemed suprised by this, but it was no big deal. I am pretty sure she realized I was not a virgin so whatever haha.

Anyhow about this girl...she is a teacher and the cheerleading coach of a local school. Her best female friend who I have met a few times is in a biker gang with her husband. However her husband drives a gold wing and I really dont know any biker gangs that would accept that so I am kinda confused about it. I thought you had to have a Harley or BMW or something to be in a biker gang, although I certainly am not an expert on this subject. I did not ask further about it even though I was curious, because I did not really see any good coming out of that line of questioning.

I am not gonna worry about any long term potential or whatever and just try and have some fun with the situation.

This is a dumb show. Quite possibly the dumbest dating show ever. Jo had most women's ultimate dream.... A good looking rich guy who does not want her to work and wants her to hang out at the contry club every day. Seriously, that is what Slade wanted her to do. Slade says that for image reasons his wife cant work, he is sucessful and wants to project the image of someone who is sucessful and have a trophy non-working wife.

Of fucking course he says this and what does Jo want more than anything in the world? To work! Ya she has no real skills, ya she has no college education, ya she she does not live in the real world because she is so hot. So they break up. Those looks wont last forever sweetheart. I would love it if in 10 years from now she is working 60 hours a week in a crappy job, she has put on some weight, things are sagging and she is wondering how nice it would be to be married to a multi millionaire who insists she hangs out with her girl friends and at the local contry club all day.

Now she is a "singer" who cant sing (seriously, she is not even close to the professional level of talent). However no one has told her this cause she is so hot and lets face it guys tell these girls what they want to hear. As soon as her looks fade I have a feeling she is gonna be hearing the truth a lot more.

Slade will never get her back doing what he is doing. Moping around, acting sad and jealous, women dont find that attractive. Him acting like he does not give a shit who she dates because he is a happy man who women find attractive and he is actually happy they broke up would be a much better move.

I have become friends with this chick named Nicole. Not really sure where this is headed but she is a lot of fun. To give you an example... she and her best friend tried to tape her best friends mother watching 2girlsandacup. I mean I would never ever do that to my mother. If I did I would catch hell for it for years. However they did it to catch her reaction and post it on utube LOL. That is just the kinda person she is.

She has a graduate degree, is a cheerleading coach and is a teacher. I could picture myself with her but I am not sure I want to do anything to screw up our friendship. I have a lot of fun hanging out with her and when you push for more you risk the friendship 4 sure.

She wants me to go to the movies tommorow with her and that is different than the types of things we ususally do so maybe she has more than a friendship in mind, then again maybe not.

I now am thinking the other lesbian girl with tatoos has too many issues for us to be friends. Ya, I am not exactly picky in this area so that says a lot.

Anyhow I am going out with a different chick tonight, I am pretty sure I am gonna have to carry the conversation but whatever I am not worried about it. I think she is shy. She is however, very cute so might as well give it a whirl.