This is my first blog post and unfortunately one a lot of you probably don't care to read. Just need to get some things off my chest and hopefully this helps me a bit.

I just started playing online poker again Oct. 09. I started off very slow but got back into the swing of things around November. I started playing SNG's and felt I had a really good chance of sustaining my small bankroll via SNG and take a shot at small MTTs when I had the time. I won a few satellites to the Double deuce and cashed for $141 and $153 consecutive weeks. I felt really good about my MTT play and continued to give them shots. Right before thanksgiving I played a $5 turbo MTT with 840 entrants and shipped it for $966. This was a HUGE boost to my bankroll. I moved up to $10 9 man SNGs and continued to crush them. December 21st was another good night cashing 4th/901 in $10KO for $604 and 17th/1521 in 32K Guarantee for $146. The following night I shipped a $3 MTT for another $256. It really gave me a confidence boost to see myself weed through such large fields....I felt I could definitely win something big. My bankroll was sitting at around $1550 after the initial $50 deposit. Things were looking up right before Christmas.

I left and visited family in Richmond for the next 2 weeks and laid off poker for that short time. The holidays were great and extended time off of work was great.... The new year starts and I thought it would be a great one.

I got back to my place and started my usual schedule of playing once I get home from work for a couple hours. I felt like I was in the zone and was urging for a big win. Tourney after tourney I just felt like I would get my chips in really well and get sucked out. It was really depressing but I tried my best to shrug it off and keep on playing my A game. It has now been 27 days and I feel like I am still getting sucked out on every other big pot I get into. I really wish I could get out of this slump......I just feel totally depressed right now seeing all of that money that I profited from Nov/Dec be passed right over to a non-deserving donk.

I really wish that I could afford to pay for coaching but it seems that is not an option. I make decent money at my full time job but most after bills go straight to my savings account, its almost time to buy a house. Any advice to help me progress from the CR community is greatly appreciated! I will try to update this blog with any progress.digress I have. GL at the tables boys and girls!