... to keep up with things.

There's some kind of mental barrier that prevents me from playing/blogging sometimes, and it is clearly showing up atm. I have played some poker, and been semi-productive in other areas. Nevertheless, it's not what I had hoped for, and I need to put in some more hours this month getting stuff done...

Let's kick it off with pokerz, so far a mixture of NL25 and NL50...

8213 hands of NL25, with 197.98 in profits
Now I must say that the reason I'm playing NL25 is still psychological stuff stemming from my downswing. I also play much looser, and splash around way more. And there have been 2 drunk sessions in which I played a lot of hands, but the quality of play was kind of bad as you may expect.

4180 hands of NL50, with 303.12 in profits
4k hands, even more than I expected, but damn, I need to play much more on this level to build back my br again and get ready for NL100.

12k hands, 20 days, I guess I'm 18k hands behind schedule. I prolly can't ever make that up, but hey let's see what I need to play to get those hands...
There's still 12 days in the month, I need to play 1.5k per day so that's a total of 18k hands I would need to play if I would have my normal schedule. And ofcourse simply stated, with another 18k hands I need to put in, it'll effectively double the amount I need to play to 3k/day. That's about 4 hours per day, probably impossible. But I guess we can try and be positive and give it a shot right? :)

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Furthermore, I've signed up with a gym and have gotten my first run in 2 days ago. I'm planning on starting light cause the state I'm in just sucks and I've been having knee problems for the past few weeks. I'm probably doing some more running this afternoon and working out my shoulders (right one is a mess).

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And also, I'm moving to a new place, should be an extra incentive to play more poker cause all that new furniture isn't gonna pay for itself...

I ran so bad last month, 17 BI's under equity, I never thought that was possible :S

My confidence got a smack in the face, and I am now more humble than ever, that might be a good thing. I still think I can win, and I need to win, cause frankly, I need the money lol. But losing soo much in a time where I really need the money, it's depressing, and I fear I can't play as good as I can anymore with all that added pressure. What I'm trying to do is work some more hours in a RL job and have less expenses to pay with poker by doing that. That way I can still take the beats, pay my learning money, and also grow a roll for moving up.
That's the 2nd thing, I need to move up to 200NL and play 30k hands while winning money by the end of December, it's kind of a dumb bet I made with some friends, yes I'm stupid, I know...

I won nearly 3 BI's yesterday, all that money is going straight into the bank, I need to pay off a small loan with it, and I need more money in the bank to make sure all the auto-payments will be successfull. At the moment I'm in the red, about 1k, and I think that's the limit for the bank to stop giving you credit. So yes, I need to win lol...

But anyways, off to other stuff. Decided to do a small clean up cause I'm always tripping over stuff that's lying around on the floor, very content with that, all stress that's gone is something I don't have to endure while playing/working. And the only other thing that is stressing me out is my health.
Few days ago I went playing table tennis with a friend of mine, and although we saw only 30 minutes of hardcore pingpong action, the day after my legs couldn't move. I am in the worst shape ever, it took me 2 days to recover from 30 minutes of pingpong, I SUCK. I need to work on that, and could maybe need some help. I tried a running bet with a friend a few months ago, but my knee started to act up and I had to forfeit.

Seeing that it's the 1st of October, I might set some goals here, and implement various other things I need or want.

- play 1.5k hands each day
I tried more, but some days there's just no time, or there is time, but the goal you set is too high. Sometimes poker is just a burden, and having to play 2/3k hands is not really motivating, so you don't do it at all. I want to keep myself from not doing what I'm supposed to do by setting my goals to high. I think 1.5k is realistic, and might prove to me that I perhaps can play some more hands in the future. Ah well, let's see if I make the 1.5k first ofcourse...
- start working out
Well, I got some dumbells at home, might as well use them. Atm I don't have money for a gym, but as soon as I clear some funds I'm prolly gonna buy a half year subscription and start getting some work done. I also don't own a bike so might look into that, running for now is still out of the question with my shitty knee...
- update this blog every friggin day
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

Well sometimes you're playing and your just grinding out hands, session start is pretty difficult cause you're getting 3bet like mad, have to fold all your big pairs on scary boards, and getting raised on every street. It sucks...

So you start fighting back a BIT, but I made sure it wasn't anything too out of line. Thing is, in pots that you 3bet, people call when you have nothing, and fold when you have the goods. Well it certainly felt that way...
I just got utterly raped, and I was being pretty cool about it. I just grinded through it, expecting to be down about 2 BI's or something, nothing majorly depressing or anything. Turns out, I lost almost 6 BIs in a 2 hour session...

I'll post some hands, I misplayed some stuff, but I dunno, vs. some of my opponents I don't think it's all that bad...

http://www.pokerhand.org/?2954396
I dunno, wtf am I gonna do here???? These 60/20 bastards ALWAYS have it though, even if it's there 2nd hand on the table. FOLD IT!

http://www.pokerhand.org/?2954410
Fold turn plz...

http://www.pokerhand.org/?2954414
Fold turn raise :(

http://www.pokerhand.org/?2954418
Meh, don't mind calling down vs a donk, standard?

Well those were the big ones...
I couldn't hit a flop, got raised of my draws and weak hands ALL the time. W$SD was at 43.4, friggin low as well. Man o man, I have to come up with some kind of stoploss program, cause I serious didn't realize I was down THIS much. I basically decided I needed to quit when I saw my AK going AI for 20d preflop vs K9. I thought to myself, k, when I loose this one, I will tilt, and I need to stop. Ofcourse, I lost it...

The world is just total sadness atm... At least I made sure I cashed out some more, so it's not that I need the money in the coming 2 weeks, but my god, lemme win plz. I will probably kill a dog and ritually burn it to plz the pokergods...

And so I didn't play hehe :)

I was excited to play but I got a nice high alcohol percentage beer early in the evening, and then a normal one later on. And by the time I wanted to play I decided it would be best to just not play at all, and just play some other games. Yes I'm a bum but I made that up this afternoon by multitabling for less than an hour and shipping 3 BIs. I got in some pretty sick spots pre and postflop in which I had to fold most of my hands, sucked so bad :(

http://www.pokerhand.org/?2948953
Villain is 57/7 over about 50 hands, has a 3.9 AF, I'm basically not giving him credit for a king because his AF on turn is like 5. But then he shows up with this, I guess he owned me :(

http://www.pokerhand.org/?2948963
I'm betting this turn, easy fold I guess, even vs him, but it still sucks playing someone who is so bad and just having your monsters totally terminated.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?2948970
Owned again, put him on an overvalued ten, I guess he just spazzed out vs 2 players with just OC's :(

http://www.pokerhand.org/?2948973
He didn't own me all the time, at least I got 2 streets of value, with his blocker as well, but damn, dude, call the river with your A4 plz!

Ah well, total 3 Bis is very nice, cause I need the money badly. Right now I'm gonna figure out what I wanna eat, I'm thinking about ordering in some greek food. Not sure yet though...

Eeeew, I just realized, BBQ would be nice.

Yesterday just eased by, playing about 2500 hands and thus having on of the more productive days hands wise. I think I played ok-ish, I owned myself in a QQ vs AA hand though, or well, I thought I did. He was just a really aggro guy, and afterwards it didn't really bother me, getting QQ AI vs AA on a low flop vs superaggro's is something I would do I guess. I tried to induce a bluff on the turn, but he valueshoved, lol.

Winning about 7.5 BI's and getting a 75d bonus is clearly a satisfying result, and really helpfull I paying off the debts I have. The debts are with my parents who kinda paid for my car, or well, I bought my car from them, so it's a postponed payment I guess. So it's not that I absolutely need to pay RIGHT now, but hehe, you want to you know. I don't like being in debt, so wanna pay as quickly as possible. First payment will be done this afternoon, feeling good about that...

Also, with all the fuzz about the Dark Knight (new batman movie), I decided to watch Batban Begins. Myself I hate watching superhero movies like Spiderman and stuff, I only like Matrix/Equilibrium ones where it's not too cartoony, but this one was quite ok. Christian Bale is the king since I saw him in American Psycho.

Anyhows, I'm a bit earlier today, got some sleep in again, I went too bed at 2am, so it was earlier than usual. Getting some more study hours in today, and ofcourse, tonight, time for poker again...

edit: Forgot I was focussing on squeezing and 3bet spots some more. I think it went allright, I was able to find some good spots and I think I profited on them. I think if I keep the focus on that I can possibly internalize it, and then move on to a different part of my game and redo that. I'm also datamining NL200 to study the big winners in that game.

Came home from studying yesterday, had some nice food that a housemate prepared. Enchillada's, yummie :)
Checked out the phone his girlfriend got, Nokia N95? Dunno what the model was anymore but it looked ok, a bit to big for my liking, I'd like so I can just jam in the numbers with my thumb instead of fooling around with both hands.

Then the horror began, I started playing my favourite and most hated game, poker. It didn't last so long...

1) Set < set, shrudding teh shoulders...

2) 2p < set, wtf is going on?

3) AK in a 3bet pot (he raised UTG, I 3bet on the BB, 55x, K on the river), where I'm up against quad 5's obviously...

Also tangled with a TAG who had a 3bet percentage of 15, obv he shoved on my 4bet, and proceeded to bet on the turn when I decided to call his PF raise and flopbet with J9. I feel like adjusting to this players is something I need to be doing, and normally I am liking the challenge (if there's fish at the table ofc, else I'm gone) but with all these coolers I just couldn't think straight anymore. I pussied out and walked away with my tail between my legs...

Almost forgot that I did shove my QQ into the guy's bb reraise, got called by AK, and my queens held up. I guess I still walked away some kind of a winner (ye, whatever m4in)...

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I'm fired up to play again tonight though, but gonna take it easy overall during the day. Gonna mix some strawberries with yoghurt and some sugar, got some kind of fruitdrink that contains strawberry/oranges, looks like I'm getting healthy lol.
Also gonna soak up some sun, I'm always sitting inside, my epithelium doesn't even know what light is lol.

Well I didn't play any poker yesterday, only thing pokerwise was reviewing the session I played the day before. I think it went ok, not too much mistakes in the medium sized pots and was able to book a nice win.
Last night I decided to hang out with a few friends and then later on started playing some FPS on the internet vs. them. We had a blast and it was time well spent. I don't have any regrets of not playing cause I played a sick amount of hands the day before, like almost 2500 so I kinda let myself off the hook for yesterday evening...

I'm doing another session tonight, another big evening of grinding out a lot of hands. Just in need of the money now that my contactlenses are gone and new to pay off all the debts I have...

This summer is just hard, lot's of studying to do, and lot's of money that I need. Why must I go through so much? (lol)

Also, I got the book from Bill Chen, Mathematics of Poker I think it's called, I took a peek inside and decided I would start reading it no sooner than September cause it looked quite complex and in September I have the time to really get into it.

Also, time to stop smoking the green stuff for a few weeks, stuff is messing with your head. It's perfect too grind a shitload of tables, but it hinders the studying...

Decided to play a bit of poker with some friends in the house, we all fired up our PC's and just started playing at about 21:00. Some beers, little music going in the background, and just talking about some hands during the sessions. It was a nice change to the anonimity in which I normal play.
In total I made a little over 4 BIs and the rest of the guys also made some decent profit.

Big pots:

Here this is pretty standard, but his checkraise made me think he could have a bigger set. Wasn't the case, but the result was the same....

http://www.pokerhand.org/?2928822
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http://www.pokerhand.org/?2928840

Why do I that? At the time I was thinking I was getting value from a J, didn't expect him to call with J8 on the flop :S
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http://www.pokerhand.org/?2928843

This is actually pretty standard, we have a bit of a history together. Reraises pre and postflop, so with TPGK I think I can't let this go on the flop. But if he had bet on the turn/river I'm prolly folding, haven't seen him bluffing in 3bet pots on multiple streets...
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I've played around with a style that's a bit more loose, more 3betting, more opening of pots. Deviating from my normal 19/16 game, playing around 33/30 is a lot of fun, and gets people tilted/calling down light more. Which is good in some spots. I think I need to work my 3bet percentage preflop more, it's 4.7 last night, I feel it's beneficial to have that a bit higher, maybe double it perhaps? We'll give it a go the next session, see if it works out...

Well I haven't been doing well at HU as you all may now, but I still don't really feel that I'm a worse player than my opponents. But thing is, I have a few payments I need to make, car and golf payments, which are quite hefty. And since I play poker parttime but it's still my main source of money, I need to grind NL50 6max again to pump out money. There's no time for HU right now, and I will probably focus on that more in September, just need to start making money now :(

But then again, let's put all my progress on that in here, good to keep motivated/focussed...

Wheather is so friggin bad right now it's unbelievable, raining all day, no sun at all. But yeah, I guess that's good, feeling indoors doesn't make you feel a bum straight away.

Played 1500 hands of NL50 6max, and another 800 hands at HU... Lost about 8 BI's at HU NL50 :(

Dunno wtf is giong on, no time to review hands, maybe I won't even do it, friggin shitpoker...