I was about to write a blog post about how I was up another 700 over the past 3 days, until I lost it all in today's sessions. Nothing really went right from the get go and I just couldn't shake anything off. I was up $200 on Party after the first session, but on the second, I lost that and $500 more. I took a break, then loaded up some tables on Cake, and right off the bat, lost $400. Cooler after cooler. I guess I was kind of expecting it since I've run hotter than the Sun there, but I didn't expect it to hit that fast and hard. I shut down all the tables, took a breather and loaded up some more. I grinded some of it back, but ended down $170 there.

After today's horrible showing, I'm only up $650 for the month over about 14k hands. It's just baffling as to why I can't win on Party. The players are horrible. Maybe it's just time for me to get some more coaching. There's no way I can't beat those games.

I just can't emphasize how difficult it is having a full time job and trying to make a decent living off of poker. Every chance you get, you want to play. You don't want to study because frankly, it's boring and you'd rather be trying to make some 'instant' money. And when you only manage to put 20k hands in a month, your downswings or breakeven stretches can last for months rather than just one. And when you have extended down periods, it gets very draining emotionally. And when that happens, your results are further affected at the tables. I guess what I'm trying to say is, don't make the same mistake as me and just play every chance you get. Take the time to study, take the time to think through situations, and you'll go through fewer hard times as you progress. It's taken me almost a year of playing cash games to really understand this.

Thanks for reading.