Yeah I know I haven't blogged much altely but I've been so frustrated with my life I really had no time for it.

Poker honestly couldn't be going much worse.

I lost 5 buyins early in my session today and then played 2500+ hands tog et them back only to lose them all over again in 400 more hands.

I mean running 9 buyins below ev can't be that normal for one day.

I'm really starting to doubt my ability as a poker player and may need to start looking fora job because I'm currently living off of rakeback pretty much.

fml

hope it goes better tomorrow

So perhaps I was being a little overdramatic; I lost 50% of my online BR which does not mean I'm near busto.

I also find it odd that people think I tilt so much; I assume it's my personality.

Starting my rebound. Up 2 buyins after 500 hands so far today/

Not sure what I'm going to do.

That is all

Alright everyone so it's been a pretty long time since my last blog entry so I kind of have a lot of things to talk about here this evening.

Firstly; my marks for this semester were decent, not as great as I had hoped but I got all B's which is pretty good considering the very minimal amount of work I actually put in over the course of the semester

Poker.

It was going really well for most of April with me winning at 23bb/100 for 55k hands and then in the last few days of the month I took a shot at NL50 and it went horribly. I can't win a pot any longer and it's become very very upsetting because I'm doing everything I should be doing in big pots and can't win. I just quit a session when I lost a 6 buyin pot when I flopped 3 aces with my AK and got all in on the turn and the villain spike a set on the river.

I pretty much hate my entire life right now. I quit my job on Saturday and have no form of income besides poker but now I've lost 33% of my roll in the past 4 days and am very, very discouraged. Due to this I'm inquired about hiring a coach to help me out and get me crushing 25nl again and then 50nl and up.

My goal is still to be destroying 2/4 by the end of this summer and no matter how upset I am right now this is not going to change. I'm still very determined to reach my goal and this little bump along the way I will not stop.

Yeah this entry kind of sucks and isn't well thought out but I'm just not in the mood for it right now.

I'll put in another session tonight and hopefully it will go a lot better

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Alright so this post is going to be about something someone had asked me about a couple of days ago " Why the fuck are you playing 25NL now".

No one on CR really knows me, and I chose a name no one could relate to my name poker sn's.

I started with $50 on party back in 2003 and played more hours than pretty much everyone until I was a reg at 2/4. This was approximately in the first few months of 2005. Then there was some personal stuff that came up that ended up costing about 75k and there was no one in my family that could afford such a thing.

After this I pretty much quit poker; played maybe 100 hours of poker in 2006/7/8 combined.

I figured I'd pick it up again this year and work my way back up, I'm pretty nitty with my BR so I started off at 25NL and won't take a shot until at last 50 buyins for 50NL, 100 buyins being my comfort level. I was withdrawing every single week for a while at 25NL and it was decent money (about 1500 a month+RB)

Just thought I'd get my background out there before I start playing more all summer and crushing and people actually start paying attention to this blog.

It's been a while since I've made a post but that's also because I haven't been at all these past few days due to school shit
I'm sof ar behind in everything and I have a 60% final on Monday, Which I'm going to start studying for tomorrow.

I've only played like 600 hands since last Friday and I made a little under 2 buyins. But I'm still 6 buyins down since my terribad session on Friday. I've actually only been playing Omaha these past few days as well but I may stick t NHL for now and then when I'm at higher steaks making decent money I'll hire a coach and branch my game off into the world of PLO

I had a presentation to do today for a business communications class. I completed my powerpoint slideshow in about 15 minutes and it only had 6 slides and I got an 81. Pretty stoked. But I am pretty worried about my finals I must say so I really need to crack down these next few days.

It's pretty unlikely I'll have another update until finals are over which is next Thursday.

Peace.

So my month altogether was pretty terrible but the past couple of days have gone fantastic.
I'm going to take the lesson I learned from this month that I currently am unable to play 8 tables the way I can play 4. This piece of information is very valuable, which is reflected in my results since switching to 4 tables.

I'm hoping for April to be a great month and that I'll make a ton of money. I 'm still in the process of paying off some CC debt/tuition so I don't know what I'm going to do. Continue to grind 25NL and cash out weekly or move up and try to win at 50NL.

I'm still up in the air about this at the moment.

I'll make up my mind eventually, but as long as I keep winning it doesn't matter that much

Alright so I pretty much fell asleep last night while I was playing so I didn't come back and update the session but I was up a little over 3 buyins playing 4 tables. It should've been about 6 buyins but I misplayed 1 hand and got sucked out on another.

The hand I misplayed bothered me while it was happening, I limped in the SB with 10 J and the flop is 9 Q K with 2 hearts. There's 2 maniacs at the table so I pot it and one of the maniacs re-reaises to like $7.75. Due to this image at the table I just flat call because I feel if I shove here he's folding so much of his range, but if I just call and check to him on the turn I can CRAI. I really didn't feel he would have a flush draw given the fact that he raised so big on the flop but it turns out he did. He checked behind the turn and shove the heart river and I called off because he had been shoving so many rivers when being checked to. I just felt I made hand way more complicated that I needed to. Oh well.

With that being said I did find the session to be play fairly easily besides that hand, and it was pretty easy to notice peoples tendencies much more quickly while only playing 4 tables. For now I'm going to stick with just playing 4 tables and if it keeps going well I may never go back to more than 4 until I'm crushing 2/4.

Alright so I just finished my second session for today and I'm up more, since last night and starting 4 tabling I'm up almost 200 or 8 buyins (actual number is like 194...went from $790 to 984) 39.8bb/100 in HEM over this stretch.
Only had one hand that I really didn't know where I stood and when I lose the hand I was pretty surprised as I'd never expect villain to show up with better, this hand I posted in the forums and for some reasons my browser kept saying it wasn't posted when it actually was so I posted it 4 times. Good job Jason!

So for this evening I need to do a little school work as I have to prepare a powerpoint presentation for a class for Wednesday night, I really have no idea how to create a slideshow but I'm sure it really can't be that hard. Not to mention I have all day tomorrow to also prepare for this. I also need to clean my house a little bit, as the house seems to keep getting messier. Weird eh? I also need to cook, gym, shower...regular stuff. Of course I'll put in another 2-4 hours of poker before I eventually pass out and go to sleep as well.

On that note I'm going to watch High Stakes Poker while I wait for my food to cook. I'm just putting my whole day into to this one post, so expect a third part later this evening.

Feeling kind of sleepy now as it's 1:50 AM so I quit my session at 500 hands in and -$5. Was up roughly $40 in the session and then a couple of coolers later and I'm down 5 bucks oh well.

I really can't complain seeing as I'm up 8 buyins in 24 hours I suppose. I didn't even touch my assignment, no powerpoint created for me yet. I figure it can't be that so it really shouldn't take me all day tomorrow to do it. Hopefully.

Time for Jason to grab some food and some much needed sleep.

So this will be my first blog post which I write in word first and then just copy and paste onto Cardrunners because I just spent an hour writing a pretty long post only for my internet to fart and I lost it nicely.

So to begin I'd like to say that I think I suck at poker currently and I also think that I'm going to drop the number of tables I'm playing down to 4 from 8 just to focus on each decision I'm making and hopefully gain more meaningful reads on the players at the table because clearly what I'm doing currently just isn't working for me. Which leads into my next point, I'm down 10 buyins since Friday in about 3k hands. A lot of them were coolers, and one misclick for 1.5 buyins but I'm sure I made mistakes in small and medium sized pots as well which I need to make myself accountable for.

I was thinking earlier that it may be worth my time to get a coach to stick with from 25nl up to 400nl which is my goal for the next few months, but then I realized that at 25nl I just really can't afford to get a coach right now which is a pretty big bummer to me but I'll just have to study my game as much as I can and read lots of strat posts in the forums both here and on 2+2.

I'm getting pretty frustrated because I was crushing these games just weeks ago and now I can't seem to do anything that wins consistently. I was 8 tabling just over a month ago averaging $75 a day. Ugh.
I need to plug every leak I have and get to the games I want to be playing in as fast as possible, but I will be using pretty nitty BR management because I really can't afford to fail in this endeavor. I really can't.
I think I'll leave on that note and go fire up 4 tables and get my grind on, I may report back before I go to bed to state how the sessions goes.

P.S. sbrugby, you're more than welcome to make me the new sponger if you read this. I'll even walk your dog.

kthxbye

So here in newfoundland it's no march 28th which just so happens to be my birthday. And I could care less

Down 8 buyins today. My favorite was losing a 800BB pot when I had QQ against villains AK on a Q 9 6 flop, obv we got it in on the turn with was a 10.and of course the jack comes. in a clsoe 2nd was a pot where we got all in on the flop, again I had a set and the villain had 10 8 with only a backdoor straight draw that he went runner runner and hit it.

I can't even begin to explain how frustrated I am with this stupid fucking game right now. I'm doing everything you're supposed to do and I'm getting crushed. I'm up like $150 this month now. WTF IS THIS SHIT.

In the last 150k hands I've played I'm up about $400. All because of this last week. I can't even fathom where I should go from here. I'm not tilting when I play, and yet I still cna't avoid this shit every time. Every single time a draw goes runner runner the villain has it, every time.

Really not sure what I can do. I'm pretty confused about this whole poker thing right now. I know I'm better than these idiots, and yet they can't do anything wrong. And if they do something wrong, they win the pot. Unbelieveable.

In other news, I bought a Logitech Mx Revolution yesterday which is amazing. And I also bought a table and card mod form tiltbuster today.

Very pelased with all 3 purchases but I really don't know if I can handle playing poker anymore unless this changes very, very soon.

I guess that's it.

Oh, fuck my birthday. Fuck my life.