Blah killer end of day didn't play so well also a few coolers.

Day 3: +51.80 Hands:1393
Roll:$1624.24
Total Hands:4567

Hit 30 Buy ins for PLO 50.



Not a lot of hands today but I'll make up for it tomorrow.

Day 2: Roll $1573.04 Hands 715

Total Hands 3174

So yesterday I decided to start a challenge for myself to get myself back into the groove of playing well and getting back some enjoyment from the game. I will take next level shots with 30 buy ins and have a 5 buy in stop loss. It's going to be very tough but I think it's def attainable. I will be starting at Rush PLO25 so 100k hands wont take as long as normal.


Starting with a 1,250$ roll at PLO25 Rush this is what I'm going for the BB/100 is a bit more then my usual 4.35 BB/100 but this just motivates me to do better. I think I'll set my goal for 10k and stretch goal for 12k. Either way I'll be super happy to accomplish one or the other.

Day 1: Roll 1,250$



I must say to start challenge I ran UBER good =) but felt I played well as well, thats just Plo for ya I guess.

Day1 End: +293.29---> Roll $1543.29 Hands: 2459



Going to start Day 2 now will post results later. Wish me luck =)

As I lay in bed staring at the ceiling cause I can't fall asleep as usual, I start to think... Is true happiness really attainable? Can the average person really find true happiness? Everyone knows there is ups and downs in life (standard stuff), but there are the fortunate people out there given anything they want whenever they want, so for them I say the answer is yes for they have zero or close to zero worries in life. For the average person tho I don't think its so simple. When I say true happiness I don't mean I had a good day, month, not even year... Its finding happiness in your life overall. Whenever I say I'm unhappy I always get flamed for it and get the same stupid answers "how are you not happy you havn't worked a REAL JOB in 2 years and your able to do this and that blah blah blah." That logic is terrible.

One thing that poker teaches is to never get to excited over a win and never to get to down over a loss. OOO but if only it was that simple. The way I see it is like this... For the average person a loss is twice as mental as the win. Say you win $100 doing whatever, and this is a nice amount of money to you, Awesome we won 100 bucks let me go buy something and before you know it it's spent. Now say you work hard today and you make $100 now that $100 means a lot to you just like in the first case. Now lets say you lost if somewhere. Fact of the matter is you will be kicking yourself in the head the rest of the day and probably the rest of the next day over it. This could be said about anything getting a job compared to losing a job, getting into a relationship compared to the breakup.

So for my true happiness test since I said that a loss is twice as bad mentally and a win lets say this... Good Day equals (1x) and a Bad Day equals (2x). If you were to graph this it would be a declining line through life. Basically you need to have over 2x good days in your life to make up for the bad days. I say over 2x cause at 2x you would be break even. Now is this possible for the average person? maybe... but I'm doubtful. This probably comes off as negative maybe even obsured but to some extent its very true. To a point I do hope I'm wrong as everyone should deserve to have true happiness in there lives, for the simple fact you only live once.

As for everything else life is the same literally day to day, I'm still slacking on my volumn of hands which in return is not getting me the results that I desire, but for some reason I'm not stressing. Truth is I just don't think I'm the same person that wanted to or was able to sit and grind 7-8 sessions anymore. I don't want to be trapped in my house I want to be out and explore. Aside from poker I'm really no one special just a guy who worked his ass off and made some money playing a game he loved. Over the past few months tho I realized what I want and who I want to be. Poker will play a role in that but its not going to be my focal point anymore like it use to be.

I won't claim I've got it all figured out perfectly or that its going to be a easy road. The road is not straight and defintiely not going to be easy... but my goal now is not to be the best poker player I can be but to be the best man I can be.

Finally got my blog back weeeeee. I guess nothing much interesting poker wise has been missed anyway cause to be honest I just don't put in any volumn more then is needed since the summer and Vegas. That all changes tomorrow when I go back to full time. I have to get serious again cause after cashing out a lot and buying my car I have to rebuild my roll. I guess this is actually good in a way for the simple reason it will give me the motivation I use to have when it came to poker. Thats all for now really blah going back to drinking on this lovely summer night.

P.S. Hopefully by my next blog Lebron will be a new yorker!!!

Greg