I have put off blogging for the past several days because I've been wanting to avoid posting a rant about how bad I run. Unfortunately, I am still running horribly so I may as well talk about it. I have been getting slaughtered pretty much every day for the past week. I don't know what more I can do other than keep getting it in as a 70% favourite. If Jesus loves me (and I've heard he does), I know this has to turn around soon.

It's crazy how a downswing affects your confidence. When you're winning, you feel invincible. When you're losing you're scared to get it in with aces because you know that 4 flush is coming every time. Poker is a game of decisions and when your confidence is shot, you lose your ability to follow through with your reads. For the past 2 days, I have noticed myself playing much more cautiously - I'm not bluffing in spots where I normally would, I'm folding in spots where I would normally call.

It's so important to have a clear head and focus when playing. Anything in life that's fucking with your head can easily manifest itself in a horrible way at the poker table. Things haven't been awesome for me lately outside of poker, so that may be contributing to my poor results recently.

So far, every blog I've written about positive results has been followed by several losing sessions. Obviously, the only logical solution is to stop posting good results. That seems to be taking care of itself.

It's good to have people around me that are poker players. When jcmoussa or goodfella_84 tell me about their (much bigger) downswings, it helps keep things in perspective and makes me remember that excellent players go through the same thing that I'm going through now. Haseeb Qureshi just wrote a post about his $500k losing session. He seemed exceptionally spun about it. At least I'm in good company.

Hope everyone had a good weekend. Good luck next week.