A startling realization about girls.

I stumbled across this link from my daily Digg reading: 10 Hottest Celebrity Girls Next Door
this list is hilarious and super telling to me. I have extreme adoration for most of the shows on it
#10. Marsha Brady. I used to watch the show religiously when I was young age 7-age 13 probably.
#09. Allyson Hannigan. I've never seen Buffy.
#08. Dawn Wells - Mary Anne from "Gilligan's Island. I have had a huge life-long crush on her and saw her as one of the most beautiful women I've known. I even bought the dvds for the series.
#07. Tiffany Amber Thiessen - "Kelly Kapowski". LDO. Bought all the dvds of this show too.
#06. Sally Field. I've never seen Gidget or Smokey and the Bandit.
#05. Danica McKellar - Winnie Cooper "The Wonder Years". One of my alltime favorite shows. I bought all the DVDs on eBay. That shows how much I loved the show that I went way out of my way to find every episode.
#04. Kari Byron - Mythbusters. I downloaded every episode of this show.
#03. Laura Prepon - Donna "That 70's Show". Again, I downloaded every episode of this show.
#02. Jennifer Aniston. Bought the entire series of this show. I love Friends and it's a great show IMO, despite some cheesiness and repetitiveness of the jokes.
#01. Jenna Fisher - Pam Beasley "The Office". I've never loved a show as much as this one. I've never been as interested in television characters as I have with Jim and Pam.

So why do I like these shows so much?

I HAD a girl next door named Jennifer until I was 6 years old. We used to have tickle fights laying around in the backyard. We'd go to Chuck E Cheese together. We'd play nintendo games together. We played games with throwing balls. She treated me like she really liked me. It took myself until high school before I ever had any kind of relationship with a girl, and my high school girls that I loved were nothing more than good friends. I longed for girls as friends/girlfriends pretty much my whole life. I saw "the girl next door" as my only shot at true love. I loved blondes way more than brunettes my entire life. Jennifer was blonde. Up until recently I had never had a true connection with any girl. That all changed with Erin. Now I don't like any of these shows as much. These shows were like a training guide to win the heart of someone I truly loved, Jennifer. My favorite and 3rd favorite show on this list, both girls were named Jennifer (Aniston and Fisher). That's probably just a funny coincidence, but suddenly, now that I've found my girl next door I don't like the shows nearly as much. They don't have much left to teach me about the world. I had used emotional blackmail and mean things to try to get Erin to change into the ideal girl next door. She died her hair blonde because she thought that'd make me happy. It did. She stuck by me and was really trying to change to become my ideal (dieting, hair color, working out, spending extra time save money, etc). In retrospect it's all so clear, but I was blind to seeing her for her true beauty. It took almost 2 years of her putting up with my shit before I realized it was all bullshit. Looks are ONLY a bonus into Beauty. The sexiest thing about a girl is her mind. Deep down I always knew this, but my thoughts, words, and actions were telling Erin a different story. I'm deeply sorrowful for the way I treated her, but now I see the light. I'm a pretty convicted man, and I doubt I will regress.

When we were 6 she had to move away for her Dad's work. I never saw her again, but spoke on the phone once. I kept complaining to my mom and asking her why she left. I cried over her leaving. She responded that it was because of her Dad's work. I knew that their parents were so nice, I couldn't blame them. Their parents wouldn't tear us apart unless it was necessary. I think at the age of 6 I realized that parts of society are bullshit. This led me on my way to question every type of authority ever, because I understood at a young age that authority doesn't bring happiness even if authority tells you they are bringing happiness.

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