So I broke up with my old girlfriend for over two months now, the one all you guys (2+2ers), know about. It has really been like 6 months because I knew we were braking up with the way I was being treated in a difficult time in my life.

Yes she was incredibly attractive bit that isnt what is important in a relationship no matter how "pretty" they are. I am thankful to get out while I could, it was at the point where you either get married or break up...and I could never be happily married to a trophy wife and that about all she's good for lol.

And no I won't be giving you horny losers any old pics/vids I have too much respect to ever do something that scummy. I am already upset at a friend who intentionally looked through my shit looking for them and watched them. No worries as I deleted everything, like a REAL quality person would.

Regardless I have been hanging out with a lot of old good friends and started talking with one of the best people I have ever had in my life. I won't name her but if you know me then you obviously know who I am talking about.

When I first moved to my town she was my best friend and even though I was immature and disrespected her, in 6th grade lol, she has always been nothing but great to me in every way.

I obviously didn't want a relationship because I was just getting out of a 3 year one that turned into a nightmare but she was becoming my best friend, I am very attracted to her, and she is such a quality person I felt like I had no other choice.

I speak much differently than most and sometimes my word choice is overwhelming to standard people but not her. When most people say I make no sense she literally said how intelligent my thoughts were and understands.

She compliments me on the things that are truly important in people, like ones moral character, which I work very hard to be the best person I can. She not only sees that but also appreciates me for it.

I fought tooth and nail to not be with this girl because I liked her waaay too much as a person and I knew it would have to turn serious. I did not ever want to lose such a valuable friend like that but it just feels so right.

When we talked about us she was saying why she liked me, and everything was about me as a person. How real and nice I am, sooooo great. Not many people value quality character like they should.

She thinks my mother is amazing, which she really is for so many reasons, and she went on for a couple minutes on how great she is and why. I literally almost started crying, someone who sees how special my mother truly is, values the important things in life and in turn is truly special as well. If you want me to respect you, respect my mother and you are all set. I love her more than life itself because I feel like without her I wouldn't be enlightened on what life really is or have the means to live it!

But this girl is intelligent, kind, understanding, and to top it off beautiful. The best is that when people say good things about her it is always about who she is as a person not that she is pretty, and she is gorgeous!! That just says so much about her and she just puts a smile on my face all the time!

Ugh I think I have fallen hard for her, yet if we broke up and were just friends again I really think that would be okay. As long as we are friends I will be happy, she really is that special and I really do respect her as a person that much.

I could go on and list everything that is amazing about her, I am kind of tempted to so you really understand how special she is, but I have to shower and grind my mid year bonus so I'll end it with a great song!

"All because of you,
I believe in angels.
Not the kind with wings,
No, not the kind with halos,
The kind that bring you home,
When home becomes a strange place."

So I am drunk as we speak. Full Tilt had told me previously because of my broken computer that I could use the continuing month for the mid year bonus. They are now saying I cannot. I will be grinding $3 super turbos for ftps every day for the rest of the month as well as buying 4 Iron Days to qualify.

Might as well just got drunk and play these fun ass games! No way I will let Full Tilt take money from me lol.

Oh yes and I have broken my ribs as well it turns out. Just two one on the left side and another on the right near my sternum. It is incredibly painful...I can't even hug my girlfriend without extremely pain...fuck my life

All over a stupid fucking fight with a good friend who was just being nothing but an idiot...fuck that

Either way getting money right now grinding out Iron Man so they can't fuck me out of my bonuses!

Since my last blog I'm up a couple hundred dollars playing random small live tourneys around my area. I love the place I play at as almost everyone is fun to be around. Obviously there are some degenerates but other than Adam Davidson, I have no shame calling him out lol, they are all great.

So I have officially broke my second computer this year. I am an idiot and kept putting my laptop on the carpet to listen to music while I showered. If anyone doesn't know your laptop has small tabs on the bottom of it, as does other electronics like xbox and playstation, to keep it slighty higher for ventilation.

Putting these devices directly on carpets doesn't allow the ventilation which caused my hard disk to fail. This also causes the classic red ring of death in the xbox360.

P.S. If you do this with a machine under warranty don't mention anything about putting it on a carpet, as it voids your warranty usually.

So playing live I have come to realize how talented I really am and how unfortunate I am to have essentially my whole roll stolen from me early on from some scum bag piece of shit Russian! No offense if your Russian but I worked my fucking ass off to build my roll up to 25k and it is sooo much harder to do nowadays. Especially since I haven't had a job in over two years and am not qualified for anything above minimum wage.

Whatever I'm blessed with the brain I have and such a loving mother who will and has done everything for me. I love her so much I could never try to express here. I'll stop now because I'm writing a Bill Craven A Poker Life 1000 post on Card Runners soon and don't want to give too much away. I'll tell you though it is pretty interesting!

I am also up to about 1k from the fishyest live cash games I have ever played. A much welcomed bonus!

I get my new hardisk in 2-3 days and will be able to update better, I'm writing this on an iPod touch lol. I also lost all my old data so I think a holdem manager and iPhone upgrade is in order!

Take care and goodluck at the tables!

P.S. Fuck outsourced support systems! They are so inefficient!

I have been out having a great summer so I really haven't played much poker at all. I tried moving up to 50NL again and ran bad for the 4 buyins I allow and moved back down. I am trying to get a real job as well right now so I can stop having to take money out of my bankroll consistently.

I have been hanging out with a lot of really great people lately and I love it. It feels so good to be able to hold educated conversations with the people I am associating with and party with them too!

Almost all the running bad was extremely standard. KK vs AA, Set over Set, etc so there really is no point to show most of the big losers. I have been really crushing skill wise which feels great!

So over the last 4k hands I have been running at -2bb/100 no biggy just an obvious return to a more resonable winrate. In my dreams could I continuously beat any cash game at 20bbs/100 lol.


I had one hand that I really hated the way my thought process went about during the hand.



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Seat 1: Hero ($25.57)
Seat 2: Bangmusa ($25) -
Seat 3: geronimo74 ($13.13) -
Seat 4: asakis ($65.20) -
Seat 5: natnat1975 ($25)
Seat 6: trimlon ($22.94)


PRE-FLOP:

geronimo74 posts small blind $0.10
asakis posts BIG blind $0.25
Dealt To: Hero


FOLD natnat1975
RAISE trimlon ($0.75)
RAISE Hero ($2.50)
RAISE Bangmusa ($7.50)
FOLD geronimo74
FOLD asakis
FOLD trimlon
CALL Hero ($5)


FLOP:

Pot: $16.1


CHECK Hero
BET Bangmusa ($17.50)
CALL Hero ($17.50)


TURN:

Pot: $51.1




RIVER:

Pot: $51.1




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It doesn't show in the HH, but the original raiser posted the BB out of position after sitting out and then made in .75. I had been three betting a decent amount, nothing crazy and if I remember correctly I had been a little tighter than usual but I usually play 19/18/4 so if I do enter an opened pot it is almost always to a three bet.

I really had no idea what to do here...I wanted to fold preflop lol but that just felt SOOOO weak. I have played with BangMusa before and he is relatively solid, playing 14/12/2 over a few hundred hands, so he probably has HUD stats on me or some kind of note.

Well I posted it on the forum as well. I usually always know what I want to do and why at this level so I figured I'd share it to get as much input as possible.

I am about to put in another couple thousand hands right now...and possibly hit up the live scene for a while!

I'll keep you updated!

Warning The 36 Hour Party Sess is Pretty Intense...no crack or anything though lolol

So I have been on a pretty intense partying bender since I wrote my last blog early Friday morning. I woke up late Friday afternoon, hit up the tables for a little and then showered around 7PM. A friend and I went to the packy (liquor store), and picked up a handle of vodka and started the night.

We ended up just hanging out at a good friend of mine's house drinking and playing Sing Star/Lips whatev. I usually am pretty good at singing video games, I was the singer of my rockband group, but Ive had a soar throat for the past week and was pretty lame. So I just ended up getting wasted and woke up the next day hung over as shit, butt ass naked in my bed at 11:30 AM to the sound of my phone going off constantly.

Turns out that I had to wake up early to tailgate down in Hartford, CT (about a half hour away) for the Dave Matthews Band concert. So I showered, hit up the liquor store and headed down to the parking lots to tailgate. I am not a huge DAVE fan so I just went for the crazy partying.

I ended up boozing heavily, selling some tickets to make some money and headed back around 9PM to start the real party! There we played pong, danced like crazy to techno and other drug induced songs that are sick hahaha.

Everyone there was either wasted beyond belief or tripping balls on acid. Me I was just stoned and wasted until about 1 in the morning when I had no ride anywhere and was stuck about a ten minute drive away from my house.

So I decided to take a full acid tab and just enjoy it...amateur move by me. If you have never taken acid before and let me tell you that you will be awake and tripping for atleast the next ten hours...on account I hadn't slept in a long time this is absolutely retarded for me to do but whatever fuck it.

I ended up walking home (about 45 minute walk) tripping like crazy with two friends. There was a full moon so it wasn't too dark and luckily the cop that stopped us on the way didn't give a fuck that we were out of our minds hahahah. He was just looking for a red F150 and obviously we weren't driving it lololol. When we finally got to my house we went upstairs to my wing of the house and had a great time smoking and just being on acid hahah. My cable box broke at 3:51AM and was stuck on that time thinking it was 3:51AM for probably 5 hours. So we were up waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too long and my friends finally passed out around 7-8 in the morning.

Me on the other hand, I was still tripping real hard and I rode my bed (it was moving like the ocean) for another 4 hours until they woke back up. They then left to go pass out at home and I called up a couple of my other friends to try and find out where I had lost my phone throughout this whole ordeal.

We then went BACK to the party I walked home from which was STILLL going on!!! At 10 in the morning! I grabbed another beer, picked up a sack of trees and hit up the local park to hang out with all my friends and it was GREAT!

I was still out of my mind because of the acid so everytime I smoked weed I was out of my mind loopy and being so silly but luckily everyone seemed to love it. I basically just quoted funny Movie/Youtube/TV videos the whole entire time nonstop lol.

We chilled at the park for hours and I didn't get home from that until about 5PM, which at this time my body was breaking down and telling me to pass the fuck out you nut bag. BUTTTT I proceeded to go to another friends house, drink and smoke more until about midnight and then FINALLY I went home to pass out.

So in total I woke up Saturday at 11AM, started getting fucked up at the Dave Matthews Band concert around 3PM, and didn't stop getting more fucked up until 2AM on Monday when I finally couldn't smoke or drink anymore lolol....Almost 36 straight hours of getting fucked up nonstop...intense!

I haven't been able to play poker for days because of the damage done to my brain...it seriously hurt to think for a couple days but I still had a GREAT time!!

I should be back into the mix soon and will keep you guys updated!

So I have played 2,062 hands so far this month, I've been running very bad except in one spot but finding good fish to exploit on the reg so I'm still up.

The other day I did the one thing a poker player should not be able to do in a cash game, open folded AA preflop lololol. I was tied up in another hand, and then my computer lagged 8-tabling with PT2 and PAHUD going and I open folded them. Probably only cost me .35 but who knows.
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The hand I was tied up in I am not really sure what I would have done if I even had time to hit the timebank. I three bet a very loose, passive, stationish fish (70/44/1.2) player fairly deep with AQo. The flop is As 6H 2H, I have the AHQs. I bet 2/3 pot, and he esentially min raised me to $14. At this point I feel gross because the stack sizes are so awkward that I can't shove or fold, so I call. The turn is the 8d and I check. He shoves all in $24 fairly quickly.

I really do not know what to do here and I feel gross because I have the Ah so I know he doesn't have a top pair+flush draw hand. Also he has a low aggression factor, and I did three bet and call his min raise, he cannot expect me to fold much here. I think he has a lot of two pairs with Axs, and sets here more than a random draw he turned into a bluff.

I think this is a fold looking back at it with all the information given to me, although I do think I was going to call at the time just because he 4-bets ak, plays 70% of his hands, so I essentially have Top pair top kicker in a three bet pot versus a dumbass.

He does show his hand afterwards.
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It's Okay though because this happened shortly after.
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This seemed to happen 5 or more times with premium hands with loose tables. Just another way of running bad I suppose.
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Here is the list of biggest Winners/Losers, most of them coolers imo...Stats are (VPIP)/PFR%/Aggression Factor

COOLER
QQ - Villain is playing 19/16/4 and I have been opening up my game a lot in position as of lately. Standard imo.
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COOLER
JJ - Villain is playing 22/17/3.5 I think I have to stack off here as well when I am playing loose and floating a lot.
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FISH PAYOFF
AKs - I thought about a river raise, but I didn't think KQ would call so I just flatted.
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SQUEEZE ATTEMPT
J9o - Here I bet/fold the flop after getting flatted preflop by both players. The button flat calls again, and I pick up a straight draw on the turn. I really don't think I can check/fold this turn although I may have to. Ehh I don't hate the metagame advantages as well.
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SUCKOUT-MY WAY ONE TIME!
KK - LuckySerge is 23/17/2 & PedroTB is 38/23/2. Here looking back I think I may be able to get away with check/folding this, but I have been playing very aggressively three betting and too many times have I folded at these stakes and seen nonsense that I think stacking off here is mandatory with back door spades.
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SUCKOUT
95s in BB - Here I take a perfect line to get it in good on the turn.
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TILT
99 - I am definitely burnt out after a long session here and thought "He can't ever have a flush here" and raised lol.
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Outside of poker everythings been great. I haven't been drinking too much, haven't smoked a cig in 6 days and counting, and been out and about not playing poker too much! I really think I might actually quit this time, I realize I need to and its never going to be as easy as it is right now so I'm going for it.

I've been working out and getting in shape as well which feels great, working on the tan but starting out transparent...it takes a while. I bet I am tan compared to some online poker degens lol. Especially some 2+2ers!

Well I'm off to bed this thing took WAAAY too long to write! I will be taking shots at 50NL this weekend and will update you on everything poker related.

Also I need to go out to eat cuz...

Here I have been squeezing quite liberally over and over again and have yet to be called. Obv when I do it for value they call :)
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Have yet to lead with a flush draw, and decide to here in a limped pot. This is something I did ALL the time 2 years ago but obviously have to balance my range now. Thought about folding the river because nothing else but a flush makes sense but 3-1 with 3rd nuts = call lol. Don't understand why he turned his hand into a bluff but oh well.
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Here I flat to try and play in position with JJ. We are pretty deep and do not want to 4-bet such a strong hand and get 5-bet off it. I have been very aggressive and both callers had a VPIP > 50 making it an easy squeeze for the BB so I want to try and extract value. This is a bad flop, and I misclick the turn!!!!
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I kind of abuse the three bettor here making my hand look like it is trying to isolate a weak limp short stacker on the flop. He can't flat my raise as it doesn't make sense for any of his range with a player behind to act.
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As you can tell I LOVE flatting 3-bets and playing out of position with a balanced range. I extract a lot of value and put myself in a lot of great spots to bluff that look like I am committed but I can fold to a shove. This also in turn loosens up my opponents shoving ranges which I LOVE!

This is every hand I have played cash so far this month. I have not been playing much as I have been out partying probably every day this week.



I have been playing SNGs as well. If you'd like to see my graph for that my name is billcraven419 on Full Tilt, you can use sharkscope.com. My tracking software has been messing up and I have my ftp client up and don't want to use the site.

Been having problems using PAHUD and PT2 lately...All day sunday I sat around trying to get support from PokerTracker but they said because it is memorial weekend and that they were flooded with support tickets. Finally after the entire day is gone, and sundays are obviously the most profitable days to play, PAHUD finally starts working after I have to download something it was missing BUT all my layouts reset!

Then I spend 2 hours optimizing the layouts for Full Tilt them even more than I had before but now 16-tabling overwhelms my laptop using PT2, PAHUD, and running 16 tables of FTP at the same time! I have a ballin computer too!

Decided time to get Holdem & Omaha Manager with the deal Card Runners is offering Fuck this shitty ass software! And PT3 sucks for everything besides SNGs! lol what a waste of like $150 (PokerTracker 2, Omaha, and Stud, PAHUD).

The only software I have bought and have had nothing but success with is IDLEMINER, which automatically loads tables to help with datamining. I LOVE IT!

So I watch this CRAZY Lacrosse game! It was the championship game between Syracuse and Cornell. I was routing for Cornell, no reason other than Stinger obv, and they crushed for 56 minutes of the game and lost in the last 4! They were up 9-6 with 4 minutes left and lost in overtime! Madness!

I have some hands I wanted to show here from the past few days. I have been running very good for the most part with some obvious suck outs and as Im writing this I just misclicked off $40 playing .1/.25 ooooppppps!

Here I get AA blind vs blind against an aggro player and take a perfect line IMO but still lose.
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Here is my first hand sitting down, I table select well and know this guy is a maniac but doesn't try to get it in light at the same time. Here is have kt in the bb and make what I think is the right move on this player, either way its goooood to run better than the other person lolol.
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Here I get three streets of value from a player with a post flop aggression factor of infitity.
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Here I had been playing a lot of hands and this player I had seen min raise in position with weak holdings. I figured a c/r allin on the turn was a must.
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I also have a whole list of bad 4-bets I made as well a reraises that look like I commit myself but then folding lolollolol...I guess that dynamic just isn't here in 25NL. I should do it for value more as well I suppose.

Well I am in the middle of another very eventful session and will update you with all the goodies soon!!!

P.S. Noticed a new type of video for SNGs is due for the Sunday line up! Looking forward to it and hopefully not bashing it to hell like the last one!!! lol

I am going to sound like the biggest hater in the world, but I am tired of these crappy videos. I do realize there must be SOME people out there in the CR (whether they are profitable poker players or not who knows) who think these videos are quality judging by the comment ratings. Although I have talked to some, and others state, that they put higher ratings because they felt some peoples ratings as 1 was unfair.

So I have played about 5k hands of 25NL and won at about 20bb/100 so obviously I made the move to 50NL and I have since dropped 5 buyins and have decided to drop back down.

The only reason I am dropping and not trying to stick it out is because I tilted off 2 of the buyins so it is kind of like a punishment thing I guess. But if theres great 50NL tomorrow I cant say no ;)

So I plan on eating a LAVISH Breakfast/Lunch tomorrow and just playing poker for the rest of the day. I got an omaha steak combo package with so many different steaks, burgers, hot dogs, etc so I have been eating nothing but the finest!

I actually am updating this about 2 days after all the poker occured because I've been out and about. My feet literally have sores on them from dancing so much...I guess open bars will do that to ya!

I'm in the middle next to big andy. I'm wearing glasses. The lovely lady in the pink...my second grade teacher lolololololol!



And a little CALHOUN ACTION WASTED! Thats me behind it with the fly white on white dogers fitted.



Alright guys well I gotta get to bed so I can atleast be playing be 1pm tomorrrow. I'll be sure to make a sunday report for you with tomorrows action!