.05/.10

Last night went well. I was just grinding along up a little over a buyin when I hit this hand which I don't know. I'd like to give myself an excuse say I was tired, I was drinking, etc etc etc... But truly, I just feel I suck and I can't read a board... Not to mention I still can't get away from TPTK... GRRR, GD IT!

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What a frickin moron. Then I run this hand which I could make a case for not even playing PF. I do flop two pair however and I can't say that I totally fault my play here, but given my luck for the last 10 minutes or so leading up to this hand, perhaps I could have gotten away from his what seems an obvious set... NOT!... PUKES!

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But like I said, the previous 450 hands went ef'n grand. I was folding marginal holdings, staying out of trouble grinding it up. You know the deal, hours of work shot in 10 minutes. That second hand too, I had good stats on the guy which were very respectable tag numbers, he was decent and I didn't pay attention to that when making the decision to put in all my chips. FOOK! I just get so gd pissed at myself. I try to learn from this and attempt to tell myself that I need these experiences in order to move on in my development. I need to suffer deafeats based on my poor decisions in order to learn to keep the tilt factor down. To learn mental calm. But I'm here to tell ya, its frickin hard. I question myself, my ability, my desire. Urges to just move up in stakes because these donkeys don't know how to play are there and denied. Uggg. Oh well.. Perhaps today when I play later on after work will be better.

Till then I'll leave you the statszors and graphzors.

Take care

--T2T