I admit it, I was recently overly tilted. Usually I am very levelheaded, I don't care if I'm stuck, if I lose big pots, if I get sucked out on, etc. But after grinding Commerce 10/20 for 3 days straight, grinding to nowhere (stuck a few grand), and missing home, I set myself up to become extremely tilted. At the time I thought I was playing great, now I just think I was playing ok. The game often fluctuated between great and about the same as a 10/20 FR game online, which caused for frequent table changes, as well as me questioning why I was there at all.

So now for the hand that put me over the top. A huge fish regular (older Asian guy) named Joe who I know is rich and kind of all over the place with how he plays poker, moves around the table a few times before finally coming to rest to my immediate right, awesome. He is a no fold em type player, someone who is easy to value bet, but he isn't a complete retard all the time, he just plays way too many low suited cards and calls with them way too much with like gutshots or bottom pair type hands to flop and turn bets. I raise UTG with KK, the SB calls and Joe makes it 470 (over my $70 open), we are $7800 deep. My thoughts here are simple, his raise size really speaks to the strength of his hand, sometimes its a pure bluff, but most of the time he has a hand that is strong but he "fears" seeing a flop with overcards, hence his overraise size. I believe if he had AA he would make it a different amount, although sometimes he may certainly do this with AA. I have seen him in the past play AK passively, but that doesn't mean that he can't be doing this with AK as well. I think for a bit and 4bet to $1100, he calls the 4bet rather fast and we see a flop of A43 rainbow. He tells the dealer time and shifts a bit in his chair, then leads out for $1400. To me this makes no sense because you would think he would check an ace, at the time I wasn't thinking perfectly clearly on why I am calling his flop bet, but thats what I did, I called and we saw the turn of another A, I believe it was a completely rainbow board AA43. He instabets 5k leaving himself $200 or so, and he continues to be a bit shifty as I think over the hand. It's clear that before this hand I was already off my game, because its really easy to run through the situation and make the correct play, but because I was stuck, I was bored, I didn't even want to be playing poker, and I had been playing poker for 12 hour days for the past 3 days, I just stuck with the nit theorem and folded because I didn't have an overpair to the board. He goes, "Pocket Kings 100%" and flips over QQ which he turned into a bluff and owned my soul with. This pissed me off for 3 reasons, one a huge whale just outplayed me, 2 I was supposed to stack him that hand, for sure, and 3 I should have been able to play that hand properly, but maybe a combination of me poorly analyzing the situation mixed with just a little bit of "scared money" principle caused me to fold.

Immediately after getting owned in the face, I instasatout, grabbed all my chips, cashed them out, drove to the hotel down the street, backed my bags, and headed home to San Diego (a 1.75hr drive). I don't know if I will be going back for any tournament events there at LAPC, while the games can be good, the strain of not being at home, combined with the opportunity cost of online games, make it a questionable situation. Also I am continuing to be either breakeven or on a downswing (of course I am not expecting to get over an 80k downswing anytime soon), and I need to be conscientious of how I spend my money, until I have another good couple of months to ensure I am getting the income I need. I am by no means broke but I am a lil frustrated and I have admitedly been too lazy to get the results I truly want. I think I will just grind 3/6 fullring until I had a 20k profit or something. I have also been thinking of giving myself a mandatory PLO day every week, so I can bust into that scene.