It's been 7 days since I got back from All Cal, and as I promised myself, I haven't had a drink in 7 days. But I really want one. I can tell I am a true alcoholic because I really crave booze. Firstly, its a source of entertainment. Drinking is usually an activity where me and a bunch of friends, or strangers, compete while we are drinking. Other times we are just sitting around and having fun conversing, while we are drinking. Secondly, alcohol makes me feel good, all warm and silly inside, allowing me to be a little more "free" with myself in situations where I might be more of a life nit.



But there is a downside, alcohol is bad for you. The first thing it does for me is it gives me wicked hangovers. My body may be out of wack for up to 3 days, which is worse than most people's hangovers I think. The second thing is it kills brain cells, I swear I used to be smarter and quicker at recalling things than I am now. The third thing is it destroys your liver. This I fear the most, even though I have no idea what kind of condition my liver is in, I imagine it to be not so great if I keep up this amount of drinking until the time I am 40. Hopefully by then I can get a new pig liver!!!



Alcoholism isn't necessarily a bad thing. I still get work done, and manage to have fun. I am not drinking all the time, I just like to drink often (nearly daily). Two difference's between me and a true alcoholic is 1) they go to meetings and 2) they are miserable drunks. I never intend to do either.



Tomorrow will be day 8 of no drinking, but after that I intend to start drinking again (just in time for New Years). I will continue to monitor my intake from a safety standpoint, and be weary of what consequences can arise from binge drinking with such a high frequency.