So I'm 3/4ths of the way done with the HU match that I agreed to play against zachvac. I'm up 10 buy ins at this point and with only 2500 hands to go. He's said he wants to continue but it doesn't really seem like he's too eager. In order for me to lose at this point, I'd have to both play and run incredibly bad. If he plays anything like he did in the most recent session, it just won't matter how bad I run though because I won't lose. Part of the reason I agreed to this match was to defend my name against all the haters who constantly call me out, but it doesn't even seem like it has made a difference. I'm still getting called out and still being doubted. What's the point? I don't really care anymore. I'm just going to let things die down from here. The match will end soon, I have three more videos that I made like 4 or 5 months ago that will be coming out over the next 6 weeks, and I will probably cease making posts in this blog. I don't know what I was thinking when I was constantly airing my personal business out in the open on this thing. Probably another sign that I didn't have control over anything in my life . I hate feeling out of control. I don't want to feel that way anymore.
The last two weeks I've cut out all 400nl from my game selection and am only playing 5/10 and 10/20. Soon I'll have enough to reach my goal from 6 years ago to be rolled and regularly play in 25/50 games. Because of this, I think it's safe to say I'm done coaching. Funny now that I'm so close to achieving that goal, it doesn't mean nearly as much to me anymore. I've made more money in the last three months than any three month period previously. I have no idea if I'll make any more videos. I had been thinking about it for a while that I could make a pretty cool video on hero folds from all of the big folds I've made in the last few months. When playing on anonymous tables you can check what the other guy had and know if you were right or wrong after the fact. The biggest thing keeping me from doing that though is that roughly 80% of the hands were played at 10/20 so it just seems like a bad idea for me to release my play at those stakes in those games.
I probably won't be updating this blog regularly anymore. There's been a lot of other stuff going on in my life but I feel like it's best if I just stop talking about it here.
Here's to moving forward.