So I've done a lot of thinking about some of the responses to my last post, and about some of the things people have said to me since I wrote it. I'm a lot more clear headed now and I'm actually kind of embarassed that I seemed proud of what I was doing. Makes it pretty obvious that a lot of choices I was making were kinda dumb. This is life though, live and learn.

So I guess I have to start climbing back up the ladder now. I've been living off of my bankroll for the past 3 months and hardly playing any poker, so my bankroll has diminished a ton and I have pretty much nothing to show for it. I'm getting too old now to always be grinding 2/4 and to never move up. It seems stupid to do that when I've won >100k in the last 12 months at 5/10+.

I had a goal for like 3 1/2 years to break into the 5/10 games and be a regular because I thought then I would have financial security. I finally accomplished that and it seems like not much has really changed from when I played 2/4. What that tells me is just being a regular or winning at a solid clip in those games isn't enough. My hourly playing 5/10 isn't that much more than at 2/4, and that's because you need to have a massive bankroll to be able to play across multiple sites and game select @ 5/10+. Without having at least 20k on every site I play on (which still probably isn't enough) it just can't be done without constantly risking going broke. And the other thing is, when 10/20 or 25/50 runs, those games are generally MUCH softer than the 5/10 ones. Put this all together and it just means that it's time for me to grind like a madman and just save up the bankroll. I've done everything I could to avoid that as I have been feeling super burnt out lately, but now I just don't have a choice. I actually just checked and apparently I have been averaging 18 hours of play per week which is pretty pathetic. I should be putting in at least 30 a week, and probably more now that I'm going to have to drop back down to 1/2 as my bankroll is so low on each site.

Basketball season is starting in 3 weeks so hopefully being on a normal schedule will kick me into gear.

Oh yeah, lastly, I have one more video coming out sometime in the relative future and I think it's probably one of my most informative ones. I think I may end up taking an extended break at this point because I need to refocus on these other things I talked about above. I mean unless someone specifically comes to me with an idea that they want to work on, so probably it won't be until I've accomplished the goals I need to accomplish until I make a comeback in that arena. I'm kinda tired of everyone knowing how I play anyways, I think it finally might be now costing me more at the tables than I am profiting from making the videos.