Another life update, the last entry was probably disturbing and definitely one of the more darker things I have written in a long time.

Today will be more happy I promise. With that said, it was another interesting weekend. After the madness that I went through on Wednesday I resolved to move out ASAP. I am living a lie in my parent's house and this is destryoing my soul. The only option left for me to regain my happiness and sanity is to move on.

I will be looking at apartments all this week and could not be more excited. I feel like I am finally moving on in so many aspects of my life. The fact that I make my bed every morning now, is just beyond uncharacteristic of me but it feels so good to change.

The last time I talked about not knowing who I am, well that is true but it really does not matter. All that matters now is what I want and who I want to be. It doesn't matter that I am confused, I get to finally become something that I want to be instead of a model of my parents.

I feel like a heavy burden is being lifted from me as I continue to take steps to being independent and more mature. I finally have a solid schedule that makes sense for my goals and life. Unfortunately because of this, I had to adjust my my goals I will be posting this later. My goal of the Nissan GTR or skyline is out the window thanks to a friend of mine saying I was a fool for considering buying that until I am more stable.

This also means I will not be visiting my friends as much as I wanted this year so I can focus on my profession and improving myself.

The major point of this entry is that while last week was hell, it was very much needed hell to keep moving on this process of redefining the life that I want.