I took last week off becuase of the abomination that was 2x guaranteed multi entri week because I was completely life tilted. Flew out to Scottsdale today to stay with friends and get a change of pace and decide to grind Stars (because it was Turbo Night obv). Low and behold I just fucking bubbled the final table of the $10 rebuy YET AGAIN! I did the exact same thing the last week that I played (1st was $9.5k again) I'm speechless right now. I played so well and had the chip lead or close to it from about 100 on down to the final 2 tables. Then these 3 hands happen in a 5 hand span and I'm out in 10th. FML


Hand 1 is versus some retarded Russian Fish and I couldn't give him enough credit to think he would be capable of folding a pair here and he is certainly never folding a boat and I couldn't make myself shove. Not sure if he woulda folded anyway.

Poker Stars, $10 Buy-in (20,000/40,000 blinds, 4,000 ante) No Limit Hold'em Tournament, 6 Players
Poker Tools by CardRunners - Hand Details

UTG: 664,610 (16.6 bb)
MP: 622,030 (15.6 bb)
Hero (CO): 1,206,290 (30.2 bb)
BTN: 584,864 (14.6 bb)
SB: 329,443 (8.2 bb)
BB: 1,434,089 (35.9 bb)

Preflop: (24,000) Hero is CO with 7 9
2 folds, Hero raises to 88,888, 2 folds, BB calls 48,888

Flop: (221,776) 8 T 8 (2 players)
BB checks, Hero bets 74,500, BB raises to 200,000, Hero calls 125,500

Turn: (621,776) K (2 players)
BB checks, Hero bets 235,000, BB calls 235,000

River: (1,091,776) T (2 players)
BB checks, Hero checks

He had A3cc :(

The next 2 are just gay

Poker Stars, $10 Buy-in (20,000/40,000 blinds, 4,000 ante) No Limit Hold'em Tournament, 6 Players
Poker Tools by CardRunners - Hand Details

BTN: 592,610 (14.8 bb)
SB: 570,030 (14.3 bb)
Hero (BB): 670,402 (16.8 bb)
UTG: 740,864 (18.5 bb)
MP: 297,443 (7.4 bb)
CO: 1,969,977 (49.2 bb)

Preflop: (24,000) Hero is BB with 8 8
UTG folds, MP raises to 293,443 and is all-in, 3 folds, Hero calls 253,443

Flop: (630,886) 2 6 Q (2 players, 1 is all-in)
Turn: (630,886) J (2 players, 1 is all-in)
River: (630,886) K (2 players, 1 is all-in)


He had K8hh



Poker Stars, $10 Buy-in (20,000/40,000 blinds, 4,000 ante) No Limit Hold'em Tournament, 5 Players
Poker Tools by CardRunners - Hand Details

SB: 536,610 (13.4 bb)
BB: 534,030 (13.4 bb)
Hero (MP): 340,959 (8.5 bb)
CO: 1,415,750 (35.4 bb)
BTN: 2,013,977 (50.3 bb)

Preflop: (20,000) Hero is MP with A 6
Hero raises to 336,959 and is all-in, 3 folds, BB calls 296,959

Flop: (713,918) 7 5 7 (2 players, 1 is all-in)
Turn: (713,918) Q (2 players, 1 is all-in)
River: (713,918) 6 (2 players, 1 is all-in)

He had QJcc Not sure why the converter isn't showing villains hole cards


I don't even remember how big my downswing is now, but this is going on 3 months now, and during the last 2 weeks I have bubbled this twice when first was nearly 10k, in addition to all of the other huge tournaments I have bubbled or gone deep in and lost a flip. Shit is getting really old.

Go ahead and add a 17th place in the ftp $26 superstack (11.2k to 1st) and 30th in stars nightly 70k (12.5k to first) to the list of this weeks carnage. Seriosuly Cant believe this has been gettin this bad and Im now going to take a break for awhile

Just got 14th in some huge $26 donkament on ftp(lost a flip, imagine that). That is now 6 times in 3 days I've finished 9-17th in a tournament with 1000+ entrants. All of them paid between $7.5k and $18k

FMLLLLL

Also 6th in $17 super turbo ko for 1k (1st was 6.5k) and 8th in $27 super turbo ko (1st was 3.9k) :(

Managed to get 9th in turbo fiddy tonight (1st was 15k) and also 10th in stars 10r (8.7k) in addition to going super deep in just about every other tournament I played today without winning anything. I had no idea it was possible to run this absurdly bad for this long, these last 2 months have been a complete fucking joke. Going to lose my mind if this doesn't turn around soon.


LOL it's not 5:30 am and I just finished my last tournament. I shouldn't have played the $5 rush rebuy cuz I knew it ran too long but I didn't think it would run this long. Once again 9th fucking place for a whopping $400, 1st paid $7.2k. Why do I do this for a living again?

So of course after going on a heater in the beginning of November I get to immediately see the opposite end of the spectrum. Ran pretty hot for 2 weeks in early November (despite the fact that I lost a couple flips at a FT that could have very easily made me 20k richer, but I digress) and ever since then I have been running fucking horrible. I'm used to running pretty awful on the reg ( I fucking play turbos for a living) but this is by far the worst I've seen. Downswing surpassed 10k at 1 point, by far my largest ever. I've cut it in about half in the last week or 2 but it's still so fucking frustrating, and after losing to a 2 outer on the river in a 50bb pot with 40 left in yet another large field donk fest on FTP I have fucking had it. I have gone deep in soooooooooo many tournaments in the last month, many of which could have not only completed erasxed my downswing but put me up a substantial amount on the month, but every fucking time I have found new and more interesting ways to lose huge showdowns when it counts. I haven't been this tilted in a long time and really want to break a bunch of expensive shit.

Well the fucking blog format is starting to spaz on me and move my cursor around for no apparent reason so Im going to end this before I end up breaking another laptop. I have major tilt issues I know but my God can I catch a fucking break please? First time I decide to take some shots at high stakes tournaments I manage to run terrible not sure why I'm surprised. I'm gonna go get fucking wasted so I won't give a shit about this anymore.

Fuck you variance and fuck you blog for making me even more tilted than I already was when I started writing this.

PokerStars Game #53580827323: Tournament #342010583, $10+$1 USD Hold'em No Limit - Level XIII (200/400) - 2010/12/01 14:54:43 PT [2010/12/01 17:54:43 ET]
Table '342010583 89' 9-max Seat #4 is the button
Seat 2: KansasStorm (6214 in chips)
Seat 3: @lele1977@ (24580 in chips)
Seat 4: elliot1102 (16967 in chips)
Seat 5: Marchew100 (4415 in chips)
Seat 6: Don Vinc 77 (27525 in chips)
Seat 7: goodvibez420 (22206 in chips)
Seat 8: victoryride (7018 in chips)
Seat 9: CeJeH (10320 in chips)
KansasStorm: posts the ante 50
@lele1977@: posts the ante 50
elliot1102: posts the ante 50
Marchew100: posts the ante 50
Don Vinc 77: posts the ante 50
goodvibez420: posts the ante 50
victoryride: posts the ante 50
CeJeH: posts the ante 50
Marchew100: posts small blind 200
Don Vinc 77: posts big blind 400
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to CeJeH [Tc Th]
goodvibez420: folds
victoryride: calls 400
CeJeH: raises 932 to 1332
KansasStorm: raises 4832 to 6164 and is all-in
DeJot89 is connected
@lele1977@: folds
elliot1102: folds
Marchew100: folds
Don Vinc 77: folds
victoryride: folds
CeJeH: calls 4832
*** FLOP *** [Ah Js As]
*** TURN *** [Ah Js As] [2s]
*** RIVER *** [Ah Js As 2s] [3s]
*** SHOW DOWN ***
CeJeH: shows [Tc Th] (two pair, Aces and Tens)
KansasStorm: shows [6d 5s] (a flush, Ace high)
KansasStorm collected 13728 from pot
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot 13728 | Rake 0
Board [Ah Js As 2s 3s]
Seat 2: KansasStorm showed [6d 5s] and won (13728) with a flush, Ace high
Seat 3: @lele1977@ folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 4: elliot1102 (button) folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 5: Marchew100 (small blind) folded before Flop
Seat 6: Don Vinc 77 (big blind) folded before Flop
Seat 7: goodvibez420 folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 8: victoryride folded before Flop
Seat 9: CeJeH showed [Tc Th] and lost with two pair, Aces and Tens

***** Hand History for Game 53579448274 ***** (Poker Stars)
Tourney Hand NL Texas Hold'em - Wednesday, December 01, 05:29:43 ET 2010
Table 342010513 373 (Real Money)
Seat 7 is the button
Seat 1: fujjji ( $86452.00 USD )
Seat 2: haydock-jfc ( $14676.00 USD )
Seat 3: GTI27 ( $8792.00 USD )
Seat 4: Casper23xx ( $78086.00 USD )
Seat 5: TRON1987 ( $61561.00 USD )
Seat 6: CeJeH ( $44469.00 USD )
Seat 7: COTLOD666 ( $50733.00 USD )
Seat 8: sprotte ( $7688.00 USD )
Seat 9: waterloged ( $23008.00 USD )
fujjji posts ante of [$250.00 USD].
haydock-jfc posts ante of [$250.00 USD].
GTI27 posts ante of [$250.00 USD].
Casper23xx posts ante of [$250.00 USD].
TRON1987 posts ante of [$250.00 USD].
CeJeH posts ante of [$250.00 USD].
COTLOD666 posts ante of [$250.00 USD].
waterloged posts ante of [$250.00 USD].
waterloged posts small blind [$1250.00 USD].
fujjji posts big blind [$2500.00 USD].
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to CeJeH [ Js Jd ]
haydock-jfc folds
GTI27 folds
Casper23xx folds
TRON1987 folds
CeJeH raises [$5875.00 USD]
COTLOD666 folds
waterloged folds
fujjji raises [$12500.00 USD]
CeJeH raises [$38344.00 USD]
fujjji calls [$29219.00 USD]
** Dealing Flop ** [ 4c, Qs, 5h ]
** Dealing Turn ** [ Kd ]
** Dealing River ** [ 5c ]
fujjji shows [Qc, 7c ]
CeJeH shows [Js, Jd ]
fujjji wins $91688.00 USD from main pot


WTF is going on here?

This pretty much sums up how tonight has gone


***** Hand History for Game 53547618526 ***** (Poker Stars)
Tourney Hand NL Texas Hold'em - Wednesday, December 01, 01:41:51 ET 2010
Table 342010063 32 (Real Money)
Seat 6 is the button
Seat 1: CeJeH ( $5899.00 USD )
Seat 2: CucaLoco ( $6421.00 USD )
Seat 4: Thor Gotal ( $10060.00 USD )
Seat 5: sbhustler1 ( $5265.00 USD )
Seat 6: dathannn13 ( $7195.00 USD )
Seat 7: I EyeDeA I ( $4200.00 USD )
Seat 8: TherookieQQ9 ( $3550.00 USD )
Seat 9: tinga81 ( $4817.00 USD )
CeJeH posts ante of [$20.00 USD].
CucaLoco posts ante of [$20.00 USD].
Thor Gotal posts ante of [$20.00 USD].
sbhustler1 posts ante of [$20.00 USD].
dathannn13 posts ante of [$20.00 USD].
I EyeDeA I posts ante of [$20.00 USD].
TherookieQQ9 posts ante of [$20.00 USD].
tinga81 posts ante of [$20.00 USD].
I EyeDeA I posts small blind [$75.00 USD].
TherookieQQ9 posts big blind [$150.00 USD].
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to CeJeH [ As Kh ]
tinga81 folds
CeJeH raises [$338.00 USD]
CucaLoco calls [$338.00 USD]
Thor Gotal raises [$740.00 USD]
sbhustler1 calls [$740.00 USD]
dathannn13 folds
I EyeDeA I folds
TherookieQQ9 folds
CeJeH raises [$5541.00 USD]
CucaLoco folds
Thor Gotal calls [$5139.00 USD]
sbhustler1 folds
** Dealing Flop ** [ Jd, 3h, Jc ]
** Dealing Turn ** [ 9h ]
** Dealing River ** [ 5d ]
CeJeH shows [As, Kh ]
Thor Gotal shows [5s, 9s ]
Thor Gotal wins $13221.00 USD from main pot

I recently have started dabbling in higher stakes tournaments on the weekends and it has not been going well. The last 2 sundays combined I have managed to lose $8500 playing high stakes tournaments, yet somehow I've still managed to make $20k this month. That is fucking absurd and if you would have told me that I could do something like that without losing my mind a year ago I would have laughed in your face.

My God this is a crazy game.

Just got 55th/2726 in FTOPS $215 deepstack the day after finishing 77/2000 something in the 200 rush Turbo ftops. 1st was 97k yesterday and 107k today, so ya Im pretty pissed. AT least I only lost a flip or something gay like that yesterday, today was much worse.

***** Hand History for Game 25698040042 ***** (Full Tilt)
Tourney Hand NL Texas Hold'em - Friday, November 19, 07:25:18 ET 2010
Table FTOPS Event 26 (186721998) Table 380 (Real Money)
Seat 2 is the button
Seat 1: Zucchero X ( $64112.00 USD )
Seat 2: erdnussbier ( $76235.00 USD )
Seat 3: kidkanada99 ( $34654.00 USD )
Seat 4: CeJeH ( $262096.00 USD )
Seat 5: crazyhorse76 ( $67654.00 USD )
Seat 6: HILA10 ( $100604.00 USD )
Zucchero X posts ante of [$350.00 USD].
erdnussbier posts ante of [$350.00 USD].
kidkanada99 posts ante of [$350.00 USD].
CeJeH posts ante of [$350.00 USD].
crazyhorse76 posts ante of [$350.00 USD].
HILA10 posts ante of [$350.00 USD].
kidkanada99 posts small blind [$1400.00 USD].
CeJeH posts big blind [$2800.00 USD].
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to CeJeH [ As Ad ]
crazyhorse76 folds
HILA10 folds
Zucchero X raises [$6200.00 USD]
erdnussbier raises [$75885.00 USD]
kidkanada99 folds
CeJeH calls [$73085.00 USD]
Zucchero X folds
erdnussbier shows [5h, Kh ]
CeJeH shows [As, Ad ]
** Dealing Flop ** [ 3d, 2s, 8d ]
** Dealing Turn ** [ Ah ]
** Dealing River ** [ 4d ]
erdnussbier wins $161470.00 USD from main pot


Once again the fucking converter isn't working and won't let me post the hand, but I got it in with AK vs AQ in a 5bet pot preflop 45ish bb deep and he flopped a Queen obviously. Out in 55th when I shoulda had a top 5 stack and a really good shot at winning 100k+, but once again I fail to win showdowns and run like fucking shit when it matters most. I am having a good year overall but I've run fucking horrible throughout most of it and this is the fucking peak of it all. legit shot at 6 figures, do exactly what Im supposed to and get it in for hella gold with the best of it and fucking lose. God I'm so fucking pissed uggggghhhhhhhh